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today i opened a fresh, lovely can of dr. pepper, only to discover that it was completely flat. how does this occur?? it boggles the mind.also, a group of eight hardcore kids showed up at the chinese buffet when my mom + i were having dinner. i was confused, especially because i didn't know any of them. i didn't know there were more than like three hardcore kids in midland. then i tried to explain the concepts of 'hardcore' + 'scene' to my mother. don't try this at home.we were showered with shards of fireworks last night at chippewassee park, due to the wind + the morons shooting them all off closer to the crowd than ever before. rosy almost lost an eye. we were watching three-inch-long pieces that were still glowing red fall on the crowd. apocalyptic, i tell you. yay freedom. on a somewhat related note, the commemorative tower in nyc is going to be ugly. as hell. a spire made of wind turbines?? wtf, people. if any of you ohio staters feel the urge to go to cedar point, some of my friends who are also on the quarter system + i are planning to go some weekend in september, since we'll be the only ones left who are still on vacation.dieselsweeties owns my soul.

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redeye, euchre, tire swing.the movie ice age, a large girhardelli chocolate muffin-brownie thing, popcorn, bitching, tickling, commiserating, kitties with catnip, being five.the only things that could have made the second half better are my favorite people whose names start with n. twas a good night, nevertheless.EDIT:it is now 523 am, + i have not yet slept. i suck at life. it is twilight, + the first birds have begun to chirp. my legs are all fidgety + awake, my feet itch. dunno if any of you ticklish people have ever tried to scratch your feet, but it doesn't work, fyi. i'm so fucking tired, but i can't fall asleep. maybe i'll go watch the sun rise. i hate my body; it keeps doing stupid things. i feel like going out onto the porch, but i don't want to wake mom up, because she's been having sleep problems too. what to do, what to do. curse you, lower body. you are the cause of all my irritation lately!EDIT TWO [611 am]:i went outside, but i missed the sunrise. plus there are too many trees, which i did not take into consideration. however, i saw a bunny. it was cute. also, the birdies were singing... they were the only sounds. no cars, no people, just birds. it was peaceful. if i can't sleep this time, i fucking quit.EDIT 47.5 [1226 pm]:oh god, i love my boyfriend. cuteness follows.amokrn's away message: adpfiauasdfadjhgadk. why can't i sleep??extensivebrevity: See, the universe has a limit on the total amount of beauty allowed at one time. It must have hit that limit temporarily, and since you're beautiful when you're sleeping, like, your normal gorgeousness factor plus a little cute, it couldn't allow you to sleep. So blame it on a pretty flower that needed to be picked or a cute little girl who needed to scratch her knee and cry a little.

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made two shirts with laura, + it got me back into my obsession with iron-ons. most of you know this already. made one that is black + says 'I <3 NERDS!!1' [yes, just like that] + has a heart patch on the sleeve. made another that is also black + has three tiny cherry patches on the left side, like where a logo would be on a polo shirt. i have transfer paper with which to make an explodingdog shirt, because i love it with all my heart.now, for the piece de resistance. ashley + i have decided to respond to the fucking atkins diet + all other stupid-ass low-carb foods now on the market. our shirts will have a picture of a loaf of bread on them, + they will say 'EAT CARBS.' they may possibly have the food pyramid on the back. because we are just that cool.

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today i cleaned my bathroom, hooked up my printer, cleaned up the clutter in my room, washed the windows, vacuumed, did laundry, did my mom's laundry, did dishes, actually made my bed, called to make an appointment for an eye exam, + wrote my sister a letter. so why do i feel like a waste of space?

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so yeah. i have been distracted in one way or another from updating recently... not that anyone really cares, eh? :Pmy sister is currently in france. brat. i'm worried about nancy.saw suicidegirls burlesque in detroit last night. holy sheeeit.have been garage saling, working for mi madre, watching lots of buffy, reading, still filling out applications. there was a kid downtown today who skateboarded all the way down the hill while wearing a refrigerator box over his entire body. it was amazing. we were hoping he'd fall and/or hit the wall, but alas. body. stop hurting, please.

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partial summer reading list:+ fahrenheit 451+ the bell jar+ of mice & men+ slaughterhouse five+ brave new world+ a tree grows in brooklyn+ angela's ashes+ the world below+ death of a salesman+ catch 22+ american psychofor the most part, these are all books that i feel i should read, but haven't yet. if anyone has more ideas, let me know! i would like to once again become a reading fiend.

'oh hi, steph...

'oh hi, stephanie. you know, i really thought it would be possible, + i'm sorry i didn't let you know before, but it's been really slow here, + i've had to cut my regular girls' hours down a lot, + management says we can't afford to take anyone else on right now. i'll let you know if things pick up + i can hire you! but i can count on you for christmas break, right?'i'm real pissed off right now.

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today was a great day for my talent of conning my mother out of money. because i pissed + moaned about her taking my carpet away from me, she bought me an area rug. haha! it is blue + tan stripes. also, i saw an ad for those squishy pillows like at urban outfitters, only they were on sale at linens 'n' things. so she bought me a red one, cuz she was in a good mood. then i found a cute pink, red, + orange striped pillow that was only five bucks, so i got that too. THEN we went to best buy so i could buy the new bad religion cd [which is fabulous], + she bought me amelie AND love actually, the reasoning for which [in her words] was 'helping me with your sister for the past week.' also, she's going to steal both movies from me on a regular basis. then she bought me dinner. i am confused. she never spends money on me like this. anyway, now my room is especially bright + cheery. it makes me smile!the manager had better be in when i call my probable place of work tomorrow morning. i am becoming upset with missing her by half an hour + people not knowing about my employment. it makes me nervous.we had half-inch hail + tornadoes today. ah, summer.

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back in the mid-town w00t.wireless-networked my house so i have internet in my bedroom! excitement.took me approximately 12 hours to get my bedroom looking like someone lived there again.have not seen any of my friends as of yet, except noah. unless you count green, jon, + geoff for like ten minutes yesterday. it is chilly + rainy. stupid michigan. my sister + i are singing 'peaches.' it is amaaaazing.

the sun's out & it's raining.

quotation of the day!preacher on the oval: everybody says they've found god without the bible. i've even heard people say they found god through lsd, for goodness' sake!!kid behind me [yelling]: drugs rule, jesus drools!one final down, two to go. i will be gone by 330 monday afternoon. i'm on an alkaline trio kick right now.

come fly with me, come fly come fly away

1.)Copy and paste this into your journal:<*font color="yourusername"> <*b>yourusername<*/b> <*/font>2.) (Eliminate the asterisks)3.)See what color you are runnnn [i suspected as much.]i've burned like 10 cds that belong to other people in the past week...mwahaha music = good.now i am bored, but i'm considering doing homework [NERD!!] & going to bed ridiculously early [LAMEASS!!] whatever, bitches.

as if t...

as if they're not different enough from the rest of the population, what with their millions of dollars & paparazzi-dodging on a regular basis, celebrities now also have to express their individuality through their newborn children.gwyneth paltrow's baby daughter: apple blythe paltrow martin.jermaine jackson's son: jermajesty jackson.helen hunt's daughter: makena'lei gordon carnahan. these kids are SO fucking lucky they will never go to public school.that is all!

cuz it's getting harder & harder to breathe

i was sitting at mirror lake today reading my book & eavesdropping on random peoples' conversations like i do every monday & wednesday [i'm not a psycho, i swear. people just talk really loud.], & today's chosen exchange was particularly interesting. three people, two guys & one girl. one of the boys was/is in the military & was talking about some of his experiences. he was in kuwait, then moved to iraq right when everything was starting; as he put it, 'i saw the beginning of shock & awe.' he had a deep bass voice, calm & sad, a baby face, & a half sleeve of flames & cards. he was older than me, but not by much. he told a story about getting stung by a scorpion...then about trying to fall asleep through sounds of rockets & bombs. i caught myself staring at him because i was so engrossed in what he was saying, & he caught my eye. i'm not sure why, but that short glance just made me that much more angry that boys his age already have the terrible experience of war. that boys his age are being stung by scorpions in the desert & falling asleep to bombing & dying so far from their homes. it's disgusting.

would you be interested in some sexual positions & emotional investments?

101% on my religion midterm. wtf. i haven't gotten a 101% on anything, let alone a midterm, since i was like 6. saw troy today mmm. hot sexy men fighting each other in skirts.i've been reading about jews all day.meg's sick, i hope i don't become sick as well. one sick roommate is enough, thanks.i am upset with the cost of movie tickets & gasoline. i am also upset that no one ever gives me straight answers to my questions. finally, i am upset that i am not in midland right now.my mood is declining. fuck it.

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i hate bryan.i hate bryan. i hate bryan.i am sick of the screaming over the phone. now they are in our bedroom & i am hearing thumps & yelling. if he is hitting her, i swear to fucking CHRIST i will go berserk.in other news, i'm not coming up north this weekend. not enough time.

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ohgodohgodohgod. noah is spending the night in flint. in his car. in a walmart parking lot. please, criminals, please, don't attack him. he has no money. mabel is a piece of shit. please stay away from him. attacking a car like that would ruin your reputation. i don't know if i'll be able to sleep tonight.

i loves outkast.

i spilled dr. pepper in my keyboard on sunday. however, my more-awesome-than-you boyfriend instructed me on how to remedy the situation, even though i was completely & utterly flipping out. rock. so now only two keys sort of stick. the k & the p. kkkkkkk pppppppit's sad when you know purely from your buddy list that almost all your friends are already done with school. there are, at this moment, TWO people from michigan online. i am fucking sick of the crickets. they're like stealth-mode crickets of doom now. the bastards sneak up on you. we'll kill a couple in one day, then the rest will hide out for a couple days. then they're like, 'ooh, nobody's died recently, let's venture out again!' & the cycle repeats. the best reaction yet has been cassie's bloodcurdling horror movie scream. noah, i'm going to force you to read 'an enemy of the people,' a play by henrik ibsen, this summer. it pissed me off. you will like it. it's around 100 pages, but i read it in like an hour & a half.i'm tired. here's to hoping i will not be awakened by drilling into my walls or construction outside my window.

i wish that i had jessie's girl

yay for inadvertently pissing off my boyfriend AGAIN. i love how i have no idea when i'm doing it. it's really awesome. ohwhatahit: she's all mad because "nobody will do anything with her" or somethingamokrn: dunno manamokrn: it's not like she talks to me of her own accord anywayohwhatahit: yeahohwhatahit: i was like, "steph might go with you" and that was vetoed hehamokrn: why'd she veto? think i wouldn't go with her?ohwhatahit: she was like, "i'm not really friends with her" or something, and i was like, "okay...?"how upset should i really be about this^^? cuz i'm not really. i'm pretty apathetic. i feel like i should be more pissed off than i am.

talk to me, dance with me

late-night bitch fests rule.i hate fake people.

crossing jordan is a lame show.

friday night slept 2-1130. saturday napped 4-7. saturday night slept 2-12. uhh...yeah. call me tired mcsleepypants.against me! tomorrow night! it's supposed to rain aallll week. not sure how i feel about that.i thought i had more to say than this.

*whining*

i used to like rain. but now i have to walk everywhere. so rain makes me want to commit homicide. sweet, huh?

the parisian prowler

for a few moments i persistently tried to understand this mystery. but soon insurmountable apathy swooped down upon me, and i was more heavily oppressed than they were themselves by their overwhelming chimeras.~baudelaire, 'to each his chimera'annoyed with everyone and annoyed with myself, i long to redeem myself and to bolster my pride a bit in the silence and solitude of the night. souls of those i have loved, souls of those i have sung, fortify me, sustain me, remove me from untruth and the world's corrupting fumes.~baudelaire, 'at one o'clock in the morning'